It’s been a long time!
Jun 25th, 2009 by tmpadmin
Not since running, since I have posted anything. My workout has been hit and miss anyway. I run a bit here or live a weight there but just cannot seem to get into any good routine. —
I just thought for about two minutes on how to transition into why I have been so inconsistent with my runs/workouts and could not think of a good way. I even have to prepare myself to type the words. So the next sentence I will just come out with it.
My five month old son died April 28th. They told me SIDS and that there was nothing I could have done. I fed him, burped him, held him a bit and laughed with him. I gave him his pacifier and laid him down in his bed. Two hours later my wife went to feed him for his night time feeding like every night and found him. I vividly remember the hours that followed but wish I did not. I can even see… I will not go further I don’t know who reads this, besides this is about fitness. We did donate his heart valves to Upstate New York Transplant Services. I called a few weeks after and they told me that they can be stored for a rather long time and they were going to be used in a baby who needs the surgery. While this is good and I am happy that another baby will live it doesn’t make anything better.
So counseling and meeting and just going home to be with my family has taken a lot away from my exercises. But I am getting back into a better groove. It doesn’t really help anything, I just have a lot of time to think and I always think of that night. I am told it will change eventually but it hasn’t. I lost some weight but gained it back again so no change there.
Cole Sleeping
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